I was sat thinking last night of the last 14 months or so and what an amazing journey it has been. I found myself thinking about Elle mostly and how she is growing up so quickly. Over the last 14 months she has gone from being the most tiny, beautiful &quiet little baby to quite a tall, noisy and humourous little toddler - she's still beautiful of course!
This morning as we sat watching Peppa Pig I found myself giving her that little extra squeeze as I thought how lucky I was to be able to enjoy these little moments. She loves Peppa.
I remember being so scared, ok, petrified, that day we took her home from the hospital. What do we do? Will she be ok? It was the most daunting feeling in the world. Paul and I were now responsible for this tiny little being. Looking back at the pictures, I can't quite believe how small she was and find myself wondering how we did it. The thing about being a mum and dad is that I don't really think that you have time to think about it and the most wonderous thing is, it all comes so naturally and even though she was only a few days old, she already knew how to let us know what she wanted and when.
Watching her grow has been the most incredible experience. It's been hard work but I wouldn't change a second. The lack of sleep is the hardest part but you even get used to that (most of the time).
My happiest moments are when the three of us are together. I love my daughter and my husband and I wouldn't be who I am today without them. They are what drives me, what completes me and what makes me the happiest I could ever be. As we wait in anticipation for our son to arrive in October, I start thinking of how it will be to have a baby in the house again. I can't wait!
And as Elle continues to grow, we all do. I'm learning everyday, learning how to be a better mother and how I can help my daughter grow into a caring, polite and loving little girl. She's definitely on the right track.
So my promise to you, Elena, is that I promise to be the very best mum that I can be. I promise that your dad and I will always be there and that we will always love you. Nothing will ever change that. And as the future is not yet written, all I can promise is our love as that is the only certainty and that will never change.
And for you, Paul, I want to say thank you. For all that you are and all that you do. I promise you my love forever.
I hope that you have a wonderful Thursday and thank you for reading.